I’m not exactly 100 years old, but when I look back on some of the decisions I made in my late teens and early 20s I can’t help but cringe.

There are so many things I wish I’d known then, so many things I wish people would have told me and spoken about openly.

But I wasn’t the first person to make a few silly decisions, nor will I be the last.

In the interest of saving a few young MSA girls from treading the road best left not taken, here is a letter from me to my younger self/all the girls I see so much of myself in:

Dear 19 year old self,

I know you think you know what you’re doing.

I know you have good intentions and it’s all for the sake of Allah and so on and so forth.

But that’s how it always starts, isn’t it?

Innocence is often corrupted not through evil, but through the misdirected desire to do the right thing.

You may think the right thing is to keep your voice down and your eyes to the ground in person, but the real danger is behind the screens.

You may think the right thing is to have a chat about this event or organising that stall, but it so easily comes undone.

It’s so easy to be swept away, to give your heart to some nice boy with a beard and pretty words about the ummah and what the future will hold for the two of you.

Pretty words aren’t necessarily empty ones.

They are promises and well-meaning ones at that, but they are promises which may or may not come to pass.

He will tell you to wait, and your heart will jump to give him a chance, but your head should form the reply ‘I wait for no one’.

When he tells you he’s not ready, tell him to come back when he is.

If he tells you he is ready, don’t believe him until he shows you he is.

Take notes at events instead of sneaking glances across the room. Pay attention to your friends and your studies, because they are the only things you are guaranteed to leave here with.

Does all of this mean you can’t have any fun? Of course not.

Have a giggle about the crushes, the awkward and cutesy encounters over the bake stalls and BBQs.

Many of them have borne fruit and blossomed into permanent and lifelong commitments. But so many haven’t.

This is why I am telling you something you probably don’t want to hear: don’t waste your best and brightest years on uncertain love. Protect your heart beforeyou get attached.

Protect your heart from those who would do harm to you without meaning to.

Protect your heart from the love which just isn’t ready to blossom yet.

Let the premature, uncertain love go, and trust that the certain love will come when it is ready.

PS-Just because you call him ‘brother’ doesn’t mean you aren’t flirting.

This article was originally posted on www.lovehaqtually.com